It's Never The Answer

So, Monday morning, I woke up and began contemplating suicide. It wasn't a question of whether or not to do it. No. That decision had already been made. The questions were How? and Where?

The Ol' Man was home, so at least the kids wouldn't be on their own. That was a good thing. And the pain. The pain would be gone. That would be a good thing, too. All I wanted was for the knife to be taken out of my ear. The pressure behind my eyeballs to be gone. The throbbing pain in my temple to stop. I wanted to feel my right arm and use my hand again.

I walked in circles and pressed on my ear. I held my neck and tried to rub the pain away. It wouldn't stop! Nothing would make it stop!! I thought I was going to vomit from the pain. But then a rush came over my body. I started to sweat. I couldn't see. I couldn't hear. I sat down on the bed... I passed out.

Moments later, how long I'm not sure, I woke up. The pain had not stopped. PAIN!!! Physical pain like I've never felt before. I've given birth to five children without so much as an aspirin to ease the pain. But this!!! This was the most horrible pain in the world. It had to be.

I started taking pills just to make the pain go away even just a little bit. At 8 I took 4 ibuprofen. At 8:30 I took 3 Tylenol. At 9:00 I took some Tylenol with codeine. At 9:15, I took some hydrocodone. At 9:30 I screamed at a 3 month old baby and told her to Please.Just.Shut.Up!!!!!

At 10:00 the pain started to subside. My brain was finally starting to function again. I could see things clearly and was starting to feel tingling sensations in my hand again. I welcomed the tingling because it meant that my arm would surely return to fully functional soon.

The most surprising part of it all was the fact that my mouth didn't hurt. My tooth, the one that lost a 10 year old filling and cracked in half a few months ago, it didn't hurt at all. The gums that were red and swollen and surely infected, they didn't hurt either.

I had called for an appointment weeks ago but the soonest I could be seen was at the end of March. On Monday, when I thought there was no choice but to just end the pain myself, I managed to get an appointment for that afternoon.

They gave me antibiotics which seem to be helping. They were also kind enough to give me some pain medicine that, well, let's just say that for the first time in 3 months, I slept through the night.

This morning, I went back to their office and after being given 4 different rounds of shots to numb my mouth, they were finally able to extract it.

So here I sit.... typing to you. Pain mostly gone..... Just being thankful.....
Posted on 1:47 PM by Chris and filed under , | 14 Comments »

14 comments:

Gina said... @ March 13, 2009 at 3:07 PM

Tooth pain is AWFUL! I had a problem a coupe of years ago and I wouldn't wish that on anyone. I hope you feel better soon.

Stacie said... @ March 13, 2009 at 3:26 PM

i have never had tooth pain, but I've had an ear infection that killed me like that...

I am glad you've gotten some meds and are on the mend.

Samsmama said... @ March 13, 2009 at 3:43 PM

Oh, my gosh...you poor thing! I'm surprised all the self medicating didn't make you sick. Glad you are feeling better.

And the first paragraph really freaked me out. Please don't do that again!

HeatherPride said... @ March 13, 2009 at 3:50 PM

Oh my god, that sounds horrific!! I'm so sorry! And so glad they were able to get you in much sooner. I hope you feel better!!

Ginny Marie said... @ March 13, 2009 at 3:54 PM

Thank goodness the Ol' Man was home! How horrible to have to go through that! I hope you don't have pain like that again...from anything!

calicobebop said... @ March 13, 2009 at 5:00 PM

Oh, that sounds just awful! I'm so sorry to hear about how much pain you were in - I can only imagine how miserable you must have been. I hope you're back to your old self too!

Mr. and Mrs. Nurse Boy said... @ March 13, 2009 at 5:01 PM

Soo sorry! That sounds AWFUL!!!! I am glad you are feeling better.

:0)

Mrs. Nurse Boy

Sarah said... @ March 13, 2009 at 5:03 PM

Good God woman! I had no idea that problems with your teeth, even serious ones could create so much pain in your whole body. I can't imagine going through that at all much less with kids around. I'm glad the dentist finally took you seriously.

Texan Mama @ Who Put Me In Charge said... @ March 13, 2009 at 10:39 PM

Dude, do NOT do that to us again!!! You freaked us all out!!!!!

And, I am very scared now. I have a tooth that has a bad cavity, maybe needing a root canal. I. am. so. afraid. of. the. dentist. Now I'm more scared. Thanks a lot.

Just kiddin.

Glad you didn't off yourself.

Michelle said... @ March 14, 2009 at 9:07 AM

I am happy that you got it taken care of. Mouth pain is the worse.

Monnik said... @ March 14, 2009 at 9:57 AM

Wow - that's scary.

I'm glad you're feeling better, and hope it's completely healed very soon.

Sarah's Blogtastic Adventures said... @ March 14, 2009 at 10:55 AM

Tooth pain and kidney stones definitly worse than childbirth!! Uggg Glad you are somewhat feeling less sucidal! : )

bsouth said... @ March 14, 2009 at 3:48 PM

God you scared me - I only got the first couple of sentences in my reader and then it took an age to load your blog.

You poor, poor thing - that sounds awful and thank goodness you're getting it sorted out. I hope it's all mended VERY soon.

DancesWithPitBulls said... @ March 14, 2009 at 6:39 PM

Don't smack me but isn't that the tooth you needed removed like a year ago? (Eeek I have to get one pulled Tuesday) on another note...do you remember Easy Redden? His mom is coming to visit me Monday

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